Onwards and Upwards!

So I thought I would update my blog with what is going on in my life...


I have a NEW JOB! It's actually something that I can turn into a career too! I'm now a domiciliary care worker (I go around elderly peoples houses to help them live independently). I will be doing my NVQs alongside it so I can become qualified, and maybe go into nursing or care home management. I start training soon, then I have to shadow another carer for a bit then I can go out on my own! I'm really excited, I hope this job brings the satisfaction I'm looking for.

I'm coming to the end of my maternity leave, I didn't want to return to my old job because it's inaccessible by public transport, a taxi costs £30 there and back and I failed my driving test so I can't get to work. Plus the pay was only a little bit more than minimum wage, I would have to work for 6 hours just to cover taxi costs so I didn't see the point in going back. I wimped out of resigning to my old boss, I just took up my uniform and letter and left it with reception at work - only because I really like them and if they had talked to me they probably would have convinced me to stay which wasn't what I wanted to do. I had a really good two years with them though and met some cool people.

I have also started making myself leave the house. I have recently been diagnosed with postnatal depression, I didn't want to take medication for it as I'm only 19, have had problems with substance misuse before and didn't want to get addicted (all I've heard is horror stories about antidepressants). I now attend baby sensory, baby play and stay and will start regularly taking Connor to the baby clinic to get him weighed every week.
My next challenge is to start an evening class for adults, whether it be exercise or something else, to meet new friends and boost my confidence.

I have also started experimenting with cooking! I now have a cupboard full of herbs and a slow cooker (ooh la la!) I'm really enjoying buying fresh produce and knowing that I am feeding my family the best that I can. No jars of sauce and convenience foods for us anymore. Just a shame because my partner and daughter aren't keen - they would be fine with fishfingers, chips and beans every night.

I have rebooked my driving test for August - Wish me luck! As soon as I have a car I can take on more hours at work which = more money for me! Currently I've got to walk to peoples houses, bit wary as I work between 5pm-6am so I'm not liking the idea of walking up the estate on my own.. but then again the people who my mother warned me about will be sat at home with my kids ;) haha! No but we live in quite a small community, the dodgy people all tend to be my partners friends so no worries there!

I really feel like my life is finally coming together. I have an important (well I see it as important! I'm looking after the older generation!) job, two amazing kids, a loving partner, a nice house and good friends. You can probably see the positivity oozing out of me.......


Have a nice weekend everyone!